Counting on God

‘’ Joy unspeakable that won’t go away

  And just enough strength to face for the day

  So I never have to worry what tomorrow will bring

 ‘Cause my faith is on solid rock

  I am counting on God’’

Though I’m facing a lot of struggles as of this time, I choose to believe that God has a greater purpose why He allows all this things to happen.  He is God. He knows everything I’m going through.

Emotionally, I’m not okay. Still, I manage to giggle and laugh as if everything’s okay. Yes, I still long for my father’s love. I miss him so much. How I pray that everything would just go back just like before.  I still believe that someday, everything would be okay.

God’s love never fails. In toughest moments of my life, His grace and mercy continues to flow. And I am very thankful for that. I may not have an earthly father but my Heavenly Father never abandons me. And every time I feel alone and lonely, His presence has always been with me.

I am unsure of what tomorrow may bring but one thing I’m sure of is that ‘’God will never leave me nor forsake me. I am his daughter and He loves me just the way I am’’. 

God, I continue to count in You. I pray for courage to face each day, wisdom for me to understand things and a humble heart for me to accept condemnations. 

Space Photos This Week: Leaky "Heart," Sun Devil, More

Space Photos This Week: Leaky "Heart," Sun Devil, More

Unwritten Thoughts

I used to write anything I think. No matter how ironic or how funny it seems somehow, it delights my soul as I read what I’ve written. It brings life to me. It inspires me. It offers me fulfillment which often times I couldn’t find in this world. But now, I seldom find time to write. I can’t find the right word to express what I intend to. I run out of words. I’m trapped with this feeling. I tried to escape but every time I do, I just ended with nothing. Nothing but the sad reality that everything has changed.

Situations have changed, things changed, and so do people. Yet, I’m still waiting and hoping that everything would be back to what’s used to be. When we would just laugh and crack jokes with each other as if it’s only the two of us. When we share each other’s story without doubt because we know that we could trust each other. When every time I read a message coming from her I get excited because I know she have something to say. When it was always my name she's calling each time she needed help. When she has always been there when I wanted someone to listen to my sentiments.  

But now, she's gone. I guess, she's now too busy engaging a lot of stuffs and acquainting her new friends. When I saw her last time, it’s pretty obvious that she's now happy. I should be happy I know. But I just can’t do that just the way you did.  For such a long time, she has always been a part of my happiness.  And when I think of the word ‘’happiness’’, it has always been her whom I could think of. It may sound pathetic but that’s the truth.   

I should move on and breakthrough from this. I’ve spent so much time reminiscing those moments which we both know could never be back again. I must wake up and face the reality.

As what others would often say: ‘’ Life must go on no matter how difficult circumstances are.’’

Thank God for He never leaves me. In times of silence, He never fails in letting me feel that His presence has always been with me. I learned a lot from that experience. And someday, if I would look back on this, I would just laugh!  hahah :D   

FREEDOM

We all want to be free, right? It’s one of the things, we all want..and maybe we couldn’t live without.


To be free from all the predicaments life may offer. To be free from all the rules which hinder us to do such a thing although we really want to. And to be totally free and just do the things which make us happy though it’s quite impossible. That’s really what we want and what we look forward although situations sometimes differ from it.




‘’Life indeed offers freedom but not absolute’’




We all face limitations and I guess, it’s one of the things which make life amazing.

A good friend is someone we can count on, as well as being so much more. A friend is someone with whom we can relax and just hang out, have fun and share our innermost thoughts, deep dark secrets, lofty and noble goals, or our hopes, joys, and fears.

A good friend allows you a safe space to share your deepest thoughts and needs without worry of being judged, criticized or made to feel silly for feeling the way you do. Friends cheer each other on, laugh and cry together, and just plain commiserate and listen to each other.

That's why friends are friends....

Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything------


MY B3 FAMILY
They made me smile. They made me feel that sense of belongingness. They gave life to my melodramatic life. They are my source of strength in times when I almost gave up. They are my B3 family.

B3 stands for ‘’bakakon, butol, and bungol’’..wahahah!.. This started when we have our overnight in one of our classmate’s house at Sibulan. While we were having our activity, we started to say this words to each other as a joke.. Eventually, we became fond of using it in a funny way so, we decided to call our group as the ‘’B3 Family’’.. They are my high school classmates whom I never thought I could get along with as close as we are right now. Yes, we are individually different yet, we still able to set aside each other’s differences and just enjoy each other‘s company.
When they came into my life, they brought back that real happiness which for a long time I missed. They accept me just the way I am and they treat more than just a mere friend. And I am really thankful to have them. At that time when we’re having our overnight, I admit I was totally lost, emotionally depressed and I was really confused but they cheered me up and let me realized how beautiful life is behind problems.

‘’Ug bisa’g mga bakakon, butol ug bungol pah sila, I will always treasured them’’
I love my B3 family.. Madia, Cass,Caryl,Ai2, and Jen. . I love you all..hahah :D

I PRAY

I pray things aren't as they seem,
With an angry world
And forgotten people

I pray that the world stops,
With the anger
And the violence

I pray that the forgotten are remembered,
With happiness
And don't fade into the background

I pray that things aren't as they seem,
With a broken heart
And a fistful of dreams

I pray

Sometimes you have to be alone
Not because you don't trust those people around you
But its because
There are things which are better that its only you who knows


--spongebobqoh--

Sometimes you just have to be alone
Its not because you don't trust those people around you
But its because, you just have to think things alone, decide what to do,
And slowly, accept things which can't be change anymore


--spongebobqoh

Writing words before you say them only makes them rhyme,
And it's childish and unnatural to write your words in lines
Because who knows what I'll say when you can't answer my reply,
Maybe it's just a case of writer's block that leaves you hanging dry.

There's no point in last goodbyes because they take up time
And bore me sick, double quick, but you don't see the signs.
Please, just stop, it's too much to take without that little white lying,
Excuse my frown but it's not fake and my cheeks ache from smiling.

Don't make this like a TV show that's been replayed too much,
Or tell it like you're new to love and spark everytime we touch,
We both grew out of that, grew up, and now all that remains
Are ripped-out pages and empty spaces that our love used to stain.

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Become somehow reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life

I LOVE MY SOUL MATE :)

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We worry over the littlest things.
Hoping we did everything right,
and when we see that we did something wrong, we suffer.
For what reason?
Are those little things really that important?
I consider them luxuries.
Everything that would normally stress us out,
are the things I live to see.
It's better than being alone with a knife to my own throat.
Or than being completely shut off from the world.
Humans need others, which is why we make new ways to communicate.
But I'm fine with a pen and paper.
Friendship,
School,
Family,
Love.
The littlest things always get to us.
I want to live to experience them,
because that's my connection to the world.

I DON'T TRUST RIGHT AWAY

I AM CONFUSED

Somehow it’s like that.. I don’t know..arggh!.. I think it has been a while since this friend of mine keeps on telling me some stuff which even I couldn’t believe..
I’ve known this person for quite a long time.. He’s one of my high school classmates…hahah! Echus!..
Before, we don’t even talk simply because we don’t like each other..and that’s a mere fact.. He’s too criticizer..and I hate people who are like that.. Then, suddenly events turned upside down.. We started to talk when we we’re having our English class last year..

Recently, he keeps on telling me some things which for me are unbelievable..
My purpose of writing this blog is not just to let my views be expressed but also to clear some things which may be he assumes..


‘’I hate it when he tells me that he like me’’why??? It’s because it’s IMPOSSIBLE

BOTTOM LINE: ‘’ I DON’T TRUST RIGHT AWAY ‘’

I may be listening to what he’s telling me but, BELIEVING is far from reality..
I was hurt before when this best friend of mine broke my trust to him..and for me not to trust to anybody else instantly is one thing I’ve learned from that dilemma..

As what a text message states ‘’ Never assume unless you have something to hold on’’


That’s all for this blog.. Bye for now :]

how tragic :(

Just as f this week, 2 major events had happened in our country...

First, was the hostage taking which ended into the death of 8 Chinese tourists. And the other one was, the ''nakakawaley answer'' of Ms. Venus Raj during the Ms. Universe pageant held at the Mandalay Bay,Las Vegas.
My opinion of that ''hostage taking'' scenario was that it was the slackness of the policemen who were part of the assault team which really worsen the situation. On the first place, they shouldn't have detained the family of Mr. Mendoza because they're not part of it. The family of the hostage taker was there to convince him to surrender to the authority and not to be a connivance of the said hostage taker. What really triggered Mr. Mendoza to do such act was the hopelessness he felt when he was ousted by his position without due process which only shows how injustice our judicial system is.

Though the government said that this incident was just an ''isolated case'' still, it affects us especially that it was a Filipino who made such crime. This is a big insult to our policemen as well as our government whose task is to protect the welfare of its people.
As what i have heard over the radio and as what i have seen on tv's, the government is now blaming the media for airing it live. And I strongly disagree with this. As a masscom student, I know for a fact that the mission of every journalist is to report to the people of what’s really happening. And that it should be base on facts. What we’ve seen on tv’s was the real scenes on that situation and it’s the right of every Filipino to be informed thus depriving the media to air it on live also means depriving the people to know what’s really going on.

Yes, we extend our condolences to those families who lost their loved ones because of this occurrence. This is so tragic. And I just hope that this would not happen again.

Its Over!..

Finally, midterm exam was over! :) What a stressful week indeed!..But,thanks God 'coz I was able to make it..heheh!
Goodbye sleepless nights!..No more 3 in 1 coffee on my table just to keep myself awake..hahah!
I felt relieved and somehow glad..waah!.. I'm quite nervous in my score in my History subject..I'm not really sure of my answers..Help God!.. :)
I answered it with the best of my knowledge and understanding..hahah!.. So,blessings for me!
Another busy week is what I'm facing right now.But,I believe that God's guidance would help me to make it through..heheh!..

God speed!.. ;)

MI AMIGAS :]

You are amazing God :)

You see the depths of my heart
And you love me the same
You are amazing God :]

I am a Christian since I was still a 2nd-year high school student. So,it's almost 4 years as of this moment. But within those years,I confess I haven't really grow on my spiritual journey.
I am always lead by my earthly needs rather than on spiritual matters. I always make excuses each time my church mates invite me to join some church activities. I don't even go to church especially if I'll be having an exam..That's the real me BEFORE!
But right now,things are starting to change. New stuffs are coming on my way :)
and God is really doing something in my life. I'm still on the process. Some of the things which I always did was starting to be stop and God has started to remove the bondages of my heart..
Now,I realize a lot of things and decisions which I made before which are absolutely wrong.
I'm facing those unconventional side of my journey before as a challenge for me to change the way I think, the way I feel, and the way I decide.


--A feeling of alienation and rejection has always been a part of me before.But now, I'm starting to accept the things which I know couldn't be change anymore. To appreciate and treasure those people who love me just the way I am. To let go the past which hinders me to move on. To feel the sense of belonging within myself. And lastly, to accept my flaws and imperfections without doubt.


--I wrestled with complicated and conflicting emotions before, but now God is starting to enlighten my heart. A discomforting hollowness filled me for almost 16 years but God's wisdom has started to illuminate me and I started to have answers on the questions that keep popping up my mind before.


--A certain level of comfort and relief is now what I'm feeling. I'm aware that there's still a lot of instances for me to face yet, I am also aware that God's guidance and provision will always be there for me. Praise God! :)

Happy Day- Tim Hughes

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Changes

In our lives, we all face ''changes''. Most of these changes resulted from the experiences we have encountered. Either good experience or bad still, it has an effect to us. And wether we like it or not,we have to accept some things on our lives which we really need to change and be changed.

Changes are part of our walk in this world.From childhood to adolescent,we have undergone dozen of changes.This includes physical,mental,emotional as well as social. We changed because of the different circumstances we've met wherein we have to adopt the present situation.At first,it's really hard to change something you know you're used of doing.But then,life's really like that.The people we know now may not be the same tomorrow. The things we do now may not also be the same things we will do for the next days,months or even years.What is important is that,no matter what variety of changes we have to went through, we still have the faith to believe that everything happens for a purpose. Thus,we have to make ourselves versatile as much as we can.

Changing ourselves is a constant process.It will not just happen in an instant setting but rather, a lot of venues in our lives. It will take a lot of efforts,time, and determination.At the end of the day,it will be us who will be enduring the changes we have made.