Unwritten Thoughts

I used to write anything I think. No matter how ironic or how funny it seems somehow, it delights my soul as I read what I’ve written. It brings life to me. It inspires me. It offers me fulfillment which often times I couldn’t find in this world. But now, I seldom find time to write. I can’t find the right word to express what I intend to. I run out of words. I’m trapped with this feeling. I tried to escape but every time I do, I just ended with nothing. Nothing but the sad reality that everything has changed.

Situations have changed, things changed, and so do people. Yet, I’m still waiting and hoping that everything would be back to what’s used to be. When we would just laugh and crack jokes with each other as if it’s only the two of us. When we share each other’s story without doubt because we know that we could trust each other. When every time I read a message coming from her I get excited because I know she have something to say. When it was always my name she's calling each time she needed help. When she has always been there when I wanted someone to listen to my sentiments.  

But now, she's gone. I guess, she's now too busy engaging a lot of stuffs and acquainting her new friends. When I saw her last time, it’s pretty obvious that she's now happy. I should be happy I know. But I just can’t do that just the way you did.  For such a long time, she has always been a part of my happiness.  And when I think of the word ‘’happiness’’, it has always been her whom I could think of. It may sound pathetic but that’s the truth.   

I should move on and breakthrough from this. I’ve spent so much time reminiscing those moments which we both know could never be back again. I must wake up and face the reality.

As what others would often say: ‘’ Life must go on no matter how difficult circumstances are.’’

Thank God for He never leaves me. In times of silence, He never fails in letting me feel that His presence has always been with me. I learned a lot from that experience. And someday, if I would look back on this, I would just laugh!  hahah :D