If you want to go up, you have to let go

Just this morning, we had our first meeting with our teacher Sir Romy Amarado in one of our major subjects which is Business News reporting. Wearing his faded jeans and checkered black and red polo, our teacher started to give us an overview about the subject.

At first, I thought that this subject would be one of those boring classes I have but surprisingly, it turned out to be so interesting for me. He made mentioned about how important business news reports are in our society and all those stuffs. And what struck me most is when he mentioned that “If you want to go up, you must learn how to let go some baggage in your life”.

Certainly, we are living in a world where almost everyone want to excel in their chosen fields may it be in their studies, wok, business, and etc. And of course, I am one of those. Hahahah! Chos! :)

Seriously for me, it really takes a lot of courage for you to let go some things in your life that you’ve holding on to for such a long period of time. Having that fear that we couldn’t live without it is just one of the reasons why it is not that easy to do it.

But as we grow up, we experienced a lot of things in our lives which empower us to learn and allowed us to prioritize things. At some point, we have to let go things that would somehow hinder us from achieving our goals no matter how much it may hurt us. Letting go may result into some changes. But embracing those changes for you to be a better person is just worth the risk. I remember this bible verse that talk about “letting go” and so, I’ll share it with you. :)

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us. - Hebrews 12:1 

a new beginning

Here I stand

I can't look back, never again

The past is the past, gone forever

I refuse to think about it

It’s too painful; too wonderful

Too overwhelming

I shake my head

I can't think of that now

I must look forward

But looking forward is scary

Painful. Wonderful. Overwhelming.

But I must take a look at the future

The new beginning

I left my head up

Unafraid. Prepared. Ready.

Ready to start again

I walk forward

Growing more confident with each step

I can do this, no problem

I walk on, away from the past

And into the new beginning!

Random Post #1

There is inside you all of the potential to be whatever you want to be, all of the energy to do whatever you want to do.

Imagine yourself as you would like to be, doing what you want to do.

And each day, take one step towards your dream. And though at times it may seem too difficult to continue, hold on to your dream.

One morning you will awake to find that you are the person you dreamed of, doing what you wanted to do, simply because you had the courage to believe in your potential and hold on to your dream.

- Donna Levine

I’ve read this quote when I was browsing over the internet for some inspirations. And with this quote, I feel so enlightened with the worries that are bugging me for how many weeks.

I am writing this post at exactly 3:30 in the afternoon. I don’t know how to start to explain to you what I’m feeling right now. Pardon me if I have a wrong grammar with this post. I just wanted to express what I feel at this time. Let me share with you what happened to me this week.

 First, this week was our enrollment for the Second Semester. I thought I would not be enrolled this week because of the long process I’ve went through as a scholar of our university. At one point, I feel a bit hopeless because there are this people you thought would help you but later on would decline to help for whatever reasons.  But in God’s grace, I was able to make it through!

Second, I feel somehow hurt when some people in my life that I thought would always be there but then just because of certain events, they leave me hanging. I want to cry all day but I just couldn’t do it because I have a lot of works to do. For once, I want to travel and be alone. I want to be in a place where I could just be with myself. When I don’t have to think to a lot of things, and let myself be relaxed. But I know, I’m still young to be able to do all the things I wanted to. Perhaps soon, when I’ll be able to graduate and have my job, maybe that would be the time.

I just hope, things would be better soon.  Life really sucks at times but I believe, God always have better plans for me. :)

Blessed!

Photo courtesy: wehertit.com

It’s been a long two weeks for me. Before our final examination week started, a lot of projects were given to us by our professors. Urgggh! We just couldn’t complain since all of those are the requirements for us to have our grade and avoid having an INC (Incomplete) Grade for this semester.

After the countless sleepless nights of editing and finalizing of the videos, script, and voice over, we were able to make it. We were so happy for a little achievement :) :) :) The heartwarming comments that our professors uttered during our defense for our 15-minute investigative report wherein we featured the Human Waste Disposal of some squatter areas within Dumaguete City just made us feel so relieved. Thank you Lord!!

I believe that God’s grace has really been with me for this semester. And I thank Him for such blessings. Even though I’ve faced a lot of problems, but His provision never stops and He let some people be an instrument in helping me and my family. God is just so good :)

Thank you for reading this post. Have a great week everyone. Be blessed! :)

As we grow up :)

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

Amazing Bohol :)

This trip was such a unforgettable trip for me. First, I almost wouldn't be able to go with them since I already woke up at 7:00 am and our scheduled trip was also at 7:00 am. Hahahah :) As a result, I haven't take a bath that whole day. All of my classmates teased me but, I did not care at all.

We were able to visit to the various tourist destination around Bohol including the famous chocolate hills the Baclayon Church, and the Loboc River. I had also the chance to meet and greet the little cute tarsiers. We stayed overnight at Panglao Island and that my first time to see a real white sand. Nyahahahah :) Indeed, Bohol was such a great place where you just can relax and feel the nature.

Thank you for reading this post, Ciudao :)

One Real Friend :)

As the years pass, 

and we grow apart, 

I want you to know, 

that you're in my heart.

You helped me through problems, 

through things good and bad.

You helped me keep smiling, 

even when I was sad.

And where the years take us, 

No place is too far, 

we will think of each other, 

wherever we are.

You're a wonderful person, 

with a good heart to lend, 

and I want you to know, 

you’re an amazing friend. :)

steady my heart

Wish it could be easy
Why is life so messy

Why is pain a part of us

There are days I feel like

Nothing ever goes right

Sometimes it just hurts so much

But You're here

You're real

I know I can trust You

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Even when it hurts

Even when it's hard

Even when it all just falls apart

I will run to You

Cause I know that You are

Lover of my soul

Healer of my scars

You steady my heart

I'm not gonna worry

I know that You got me

Right inside the palm of your hand

Each and every moment

What's good and what gets broken

Happens just the way that You plan

And I will run to You

You're my refuge in Your arms

And I will sing to You

Cause of everything You are

You steady my heart 

This is a song of Kari Jobe entitled “Steady my Heart”. Just a little background of Kari Jobe, she’s an American Christian Singer. She started singing at the age of 3. And she’s one of the Christian singers I admire most. :) I first heard this song through Youtube and the first time I have listened to it, I got LSS (last song syndrome thingy) Nyahahahah :)

Seriously, I’ve come to reflect this song to what I have experienced. I’ve been in a relationship where I thought it would really work yet at the end, a broken heart is what I got. Oh yes, I just thank God for saving me from such relationship. And now, I’m on the state where I feel so contented with what I have and enjoying every blessing God is giving me every single day.

In life, there’s such a point when you just follow and follow your heart without even thinking if it’s worth the risk. But after you would get hurt, you would really learn. God is there, He knows everything. And no matter what would happen, He’s there ready to rescue you when you feel like you’re drowning. He restores broken hearts. He heals broken souls. For now, I just pray that God would continue to steady my heart. :)

Soon, I’ll gonna say goodbye..

Two years back then, I applied for this organization as an affiliate for their Writing Department. Luckily, they accepted me and gave me the chance to be a part of this family. They believed with my talent in writing, they trusted me that I can handle tasks, and they gave me that opportunity to develop myself more to become a responsible individual. 
 

Now, I’m on my last year to be with this organization. Time flies so fast that I couldn’t imagine that I was able to make it through. The sleepless nights I’ve spent with my co-stupendous writers, the adventurous travels around the external campuses I experienced with them, the laughter and cheers I had with the Pylonites are memories that forever will be in my heart. My college days would never be that fun without the Pylonites. 

Soon, I’ll bid goodbye to this family. I’ve realized this when we had our IPR. That was my last IPR. Although March is still far, I slowly feel the sadness and that thought that I would really miss this people. And no matter how much I wanted to stay and be still called a part of the Pylon Staff, I know I have to go soon, and be a part of the Pylon Alumni. 

with the stupendous writers and Danica :)

 

with my teammates :D

pose kunuhay, nyahahah ;)

picture2 sa sayong buntag :)

with Aryan and Recrod :)

 

akong jumeygang eyfa nga shuang, hahahahah :P

with my jumeygang 18 nah :)

one of the members of the videoke team, Max :D

 

 first time to lit a fire lantern :D

Let me share with you this short poem I've made for my Pylon Family

The hardest part of any friendship
is when it is time to say goodbye,
and even though I wished I could stay,
I know I have to go and let my wings fly.

For life is a journey that needs to be traveled

Though  I am uncertain if I'd make it through,
I just want you to know and never forget
that I will surely miss all of you.

So I'll follow my heart and never give up,
as dreams and wishes do come true,
for I know that someday we'll meet again,

because in my heart, I will always be a Pylonite!

Thank you for reading this post, Ciudao! :)

souvenir from Malaysia :)

Just last Friday, one of my major teachers gave us some souvenirs from Malaysia.  Tenterenteren... 

It's a key holder with miniature figures of Malaysian ladies, I think :D

I found it so creative especially that their heads have a description of their country "Malaysia" :)

It's handmade by the way. :)

You are Worth Waiting :)

July 15,2012

For the second time, I joined the True Love Waits Seminar of our church held at YMCA. At first, I honestly don’t have any plan to join at first since I know that I would be busy doing our projects for our major subjects. But I believe that it was really God’s will that I should join such seminar. I cancelled all my activities at that day and decided to attend with my mentor Ate Liv Vilar (who have been so patient and understanding to me all this time :D).

We arrived at exactly 10:00 am (obviously we’re late since it started around 8:30 am) Hahahah! Our dearest mentor Ate Ella discussed how important it is to be pure in the eyes of God before entering marriage and all those stuffs about sexual impurity. Although this topic is no longer new to me, I still see it as a problem especially that it involves young individuals in our society who are already committing such acts of sexual impurities.

That seminar was really an eye-opener on my part since I admitted I have been very busy doing a lot of things that sometimes, I forgot to serve God and do my part as a Christian. I had my commitment ceremony late that evening in which I had my ring which symbolizes that I committed to preserve myself and wait for the man that God prepares for me. I cried it’s because I know that at some point in my life, I did not listen to God and chose to follow my heart.

I still thank God so much for saving me from that relationship. Now, I am once again free. And that night, I made a covenant to God that in His grace, I will be able to endure and wait for the man He prepares for me.

Here are some of the pics I've taken during the seminar :)

Love does not run

Love does not hide

Love does not keep

Locked inside

 Love is the river that flows through

Love never fails you

Song of Songs 2:7 Do not awaken love until it so desires

YOU ARE WORTH WAITING FOR :)

Of being frank

Why am I writing this post??? Oh well, I just thought of writing this topic just after I had done computing the ratings of the evaluation we just had. And guess what, I was really shocked, surprised and somehow, I am satisfied for the results. I think the Pylon Staff are really fair and just in terms of evaluation although we had such a close tight bond.

Anyway, I’ll go back to my topic about being frank :)

During my high school years, most of my friends would really tell me that I am so frank that sometimes I unintentionally hurt the feelings of others. And until now, the same problem is what people would often tell me. “That I am just too frank and this and that…”

Oh yes, I admit to myself that I am really frank. I always have this urge within myself to tell to the other person what I’m thinking not even thinking about how they would feel. Maybe another factor is that my environment among my other masscom friends. For us, being frank is an ordinary thing. But I should also bear in mind that I always have to control myself. 

However, for me being frank is better than being untrue to what you feel and of what you think. I guess I’m just being honest but what’s really my fault is that I just being so direct to the point until such time that a person would be hurt.


A thought to ponder: Learn how to control yourself especially if you think you would just hurt someone's feeling by saying/telling them your opinion.

*I would really try to change that not so good attitude or maybe I do really have to learn how to control myself most especially my mouth. Hahahahah! (shudi abas na teta :D)

Anyway, thank you for reading this somehow senseless post. :D

(overnight with Nikka, Aryan, and Jazzie at the Pylon Office:) )

Good night sweeties! :) 

Solitary Place

When this place becomes so gloomy, I wonder what happened. People are no longer the same. They become too busy meeting the deadlines, making paper works, doing tasks.  It’s no longer the same. Nothing left but only traces of what it has been before. Silence becomes so ordinary. Others become too self-centered.

This place I once called my second home slowly changes. The atmosphere is no longer the same just like before. I remembered how we work before full of laughter and cheers. When some meetings become a time for chit-chat. When we talk about random things without even noticing what time it is. When we just share each other's story without thinking that we still have exams for the next day. It loses its sense of glee and somehow, I dearly miss what this place was before. 

I remember before that when I open the door in the morning, what I would usually see are smiling faces of the people. But now, a frowning face is what would usually welcome me. I am trying to understand that people are not really the same. Perhaps, this is one of the changes I myself needed to face for me to be a better individual. Maybe God has plans why He allows things to happen, I sighed. 

I guess it’s not only me who noticed this change. Perhaps, they too observed it. But they dared to just keep it within their selves. I feel sad; I just miss them so much! :(

June 25th

Today, the sun refused to shine, it’s gloomy. Perhaps, the weather sympathizes what I truly feels today. Never did I think that things would turn out as what it is now. It’s beyond, it’s hurting and somehow I feel deep down inside that I am slowly sinking with this feeling.

It has just been 3 days since the last time we talked.  It was late afternoon then, he waited for me at the gate. Our eyes met and I feel that something within me is hurting. We walked until we reach the place where we intended to sit and talk. People are passing in our way. I feel like I’m floating at that time, feeling so lost that I don’t even noticed that we were walking together. Then, he started to talk and talk about what happened and started to say sorry over and over of what he did. I’ve tried explaining everything to him. Yet, he still insists that I should give him another chance.

After that, I thought that he would stop me. That he would no longer send me random text messages of how he feels with our break-up. That he would just let me move on. That he would no longer let me feel that my decision of leaving him is wrong.

It’s hard to be in this situation when what I truly feel that it’s enough yet, he still doesn’t want to give up. I feel so sad, hopeless and perhaps feeling so uncertain.  He always wanted me to be there for him when in fact how many times he took me for granted. He’s just so selfish, self-centered, and insensitive.

This time what I needed is time for myself. This is my first heartbreak and somehow, I now understand what others would tell me how it hurt to experience it for the first time. Behind all these, when broken hearts would be healed, I would be okay. He too would be okay, I sighed.

Soon-to-be-trip :)

It's a bright sunny Tuesday! I thought this day would be one of the boring-major-class I would experience. But this time, it was a day which turned out to be so exciting.

Yeheey! We just met one of our major subject teachers in our subject for Community Newspaper. He is Sir Ely Dejaresco, the current Editor-In-Chief of The Negros Chronicle, a local newspaper of Negros Oriental. Well, he really looks like a very busy person who has so many appointments such as meetings with eligible people in the society.

And, what makes me more excited was when he said we will have a trip at the “Island Paradise of Southern Philippines- Bohol Island” Hahahahah! How happy we are upon knowing about this trip that hopefully, a big hopefully, this out of town will push through :) 

I have never been to Bohol that's why I am so excited and as if I am awakened when I hear my teacher saying about it. Hahahahah! Chos :D

Here are some pics I've found at the internet which I really really hope we could visit in our soon-to-be-trip :)

Chocolate Hills with love :)

  Panglao Beach Resort :)

the famous Loboc River :D

I would love to see the smallest monkey in the world--- bright bulging eyes of the TARSIER ^^

I really hope that this trip would push through. :)