That dark and stormy night....

It was a dark and stormy night. I’m still waiting for my classmates outside the gate. Heavy rains poured out as I glanced at the open field. It was then I realized that it was just only me standing alone.

Could someone at least stand beside me at this moment? I feel so alone and lonely yet no one’s with me. The night is long and it reminds of that night when he went away.

I took a few steps closer to the gate when suddenly a strong whiz of the wind blew my umbrella away. I tried to pull back and took cover under the mango tree when a lightning strike a nearby tree.

I step shocked. Where are they? Are they still coming for me? Or they are just the same with my boyfriend. Just went away and gone forever. Not a single trace can be found. Am I destined to be treated like this? My heart is on deep hurt. It was that night, the very same night, dark and cold, I saw him there beside the guard house with her. Arms tightly locked with each other, I can feel the passion of two people in love.

All I could do was to stare at them. I stand there frozen. I can’t move while the rain was pouring very hard. I admit I still love him and it kills like hell to see him with another woman. Didn’t he love me anymore? I gave him all my love, but here I’m alone in this gloomy night, witnessing the romantic scene of the man I love with my best friend.

How can they betray me like this? I trusted them… how could they do this to me? I was so good to them; I give anything they asked for. Oh! Hell no!! I’m going to give back what they have started.

This is so unfair! I know they wouldn’t be happy. Curse them both! Revenge will surely happen. They will really feel the pain they have caused me. Someday, they will realize what they did.

I know, to be in love is a great feeling but now I realized, being in love also means being risky that you might get hurt form the person you’ve trusted so much.

That was two years ago, I smiled as I recall that tragic moment with my life. Here I am now, gladly smiling facing with the other graduate. Finally, I am now a graduate. A better person. A better me.

                

God saves :)

For how many weeks, I was really confused on what to do. Things are getting more complicated. I don’t know if I’m making the right thing. In short, I’m totally lost.

I have nowhere to go. My friends are all busy. They have their own lives. I can’t rely on them at all times unlike before. Perhaps, I thought I can do this barely on my own.

There were nights when before I close my eyes, I cried and fervently pray that He will grant me the wisdom on what to do. At that time, I don’t really know what to do.

In God’s grace, He answered my prayer.

It was one Sunday morning, I woke up around 6 o’clock am. I got up, listening to Christian songs while sitting in our porch. And then, I was really touched with the song “You’re My Beloved” by Kare Jobe.

Just with that song, I feel God’s presence and I can’t control myself from crying. At that time, God let me feel how He loves me and that He will never let me go no matter what.

At that moment when I almost lose hope, His love rescued me.

I believe God has his purpose why He let things happen.

I may not understand this right now but I know someday, I will.

He is worth to be praise. J

that was me before

I’m trapped in this situation. That feeling of sadness even though I’m surrounded with cheerful friends. They make me smile.Oh yes! They’re so good to me. Yet out of somewhere, something else catches my attention. Now, I’m looking into it. Closer, a little bit closer and gently I found it! This is what I missed.

This was me before. This is how exactly I chuckle,giggle,and laugh. I miss my sense of cheerfulness. It has been a long time since I laugh outrageously.  That kind of laugh without any pretentions. I was like that before.

Full of life, enthusiasm, and zest.